Can't sleep

DELELTED by me

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Dear Blog,
I'm about as good at this as I am writing in my journal. Let's see what has gone on....my 29th birthday again. The fam came down (mom, dad, & Lucy) for a few hours, then Stacy took me out to Charter House in the tower. Of course the night we go it's foggy and it was like eating in a cloud. However it did clear up the last 20 minutes we were there. He made me the best card ever and once I get around to it I'll put it on here (chances are I'll forget). Today at the grocery store I was asked if I was expecting a boy...hmmm...very awkward and surprising seeing as I'm not pregnant. I didn't know quite what to say, but tried to be very nice when I said no. The gentleman(he was a senior citizen..trying to be politically correct here) felt bad..at least I think he did. He said it's hard to tell with girls shirts these days and I told him I understand. I feel a strong urge to become pro mia again, but I won't. And to top it all off while I'm in the store I find out from my mom that a friend passed away yesterday, so then I get even more depressed and try not to break down in the store. So I left the store and got in the car and chomped down on my 1 pound bag of peanut M&M's. Then once I got home I ended up binging..chips, bagel w/ cream cheese, more m&m's..i couldn't stop. I wish I had some wing stop fries to shove in my mouth during my episode. I need to sign off so I can finish a book to return to the brary..night.

I want a soda!!!! A nice cold Dr. Pepper!!! But my new year's resolution (the only one I made) was to drop soda for the year. It's only the 15th day in and I feel like I'm going to crack. There's one in the fridge right now just calling out to me. Temptation..I hate it, because I know I'll give in. I'm not strong enough. Dr. Pepper and Coke are to me what heroin is to an addict (so maybe the addicts cravings are slightly stronger, but you get the idea). I started physical therapy today, so fingers crossed that my horrific neck/back pains won't be as often nor as bad. Why is it when you're not in lots of pain that that is when the appt to get you in can be made? I was in pain, but not like the PAIN I was in before. I do have to say that I wish it was excruciating today just so the therapist could get the true picture of what happens to me. Oh well, there's always next week.

Peer pressured into blogging

Yes I fell into the peer pressure to start a blog. I didn't think a 29 year old would crack, but I did and here I am. It took me forever to come up with a blog name or whatever it was I had to come up with. It seemed that everything I chose was taken...queen of the world, american princess, you get the idea...basically everything that describes me is being used by someone else. I spent an hour...an HOUR figuring a name. So I decided on justcallmethomas because i started to doubt that I would find anything else. I'm very curious as to if I will be able to endure the blogging or will I just quit. Here goes.....